The "I" Syndrome
Hi everyone! I have been absent for several weeks from my blog post. So today instead of writing my normal Titus 2 encouragement. Let me explain where I have been.
On April 10th our Son Jenson went into the hospital to have a pace maker put in.
"Yes" I did say pace maker. That thing that only older people get.
See our son Jenson was born with a condition called "Third Degree Heart Block" this effects his electrical in his heart. So his heart beats slower and not as efficient as a normal heart.
"I" have been preparing my heart for this day since he was born.
"I" have been praying with all I have, to have him cured.
"I" have doubted Christ love for him.
"I" was told that Christ can heal & will heal his heart.(And He can)
"I" was doubting my own heart, believing if I go through with this procedure, my faith in Christ was weak.
So you can see the pattern above,"I"
The Lord revealed & rebuked me several days leading up to the surgery to the day of the surgery, it wasn't about "I".
It is about Him. And I know this with all my heart, soul & mind. I was so self absorbed on how "I" was feeling and not on my task at hand to be Christ heart, hands & feet for our family, friends and the people placed in front of me at the hospital.
He reminded me of the below verse:
I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.
"Yes!" what was "I" thinking!
Succumbing to the flesh is so easy, we can get so caught up in the "I" thing. We need to keep our eyes & hearts on Him. Because, if "I" would of closed my heart to His voice on what He had & has planned for our son, our son & others would of missed out on Christ's love that day.
So with that said, it was a day of so many blessings! Because "I" kept my heart open to others needs. We prayed for & with other parents, that the Lord put in our paths that have sick children.
Because, it is not about "I" it is about Him and having Faith that the Lord has bigger & better plans for our little one with his pace maker. This is Jenson's journey to glorify our Savior.
Blessings to You