Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Titus 2 Tuesday

The "I" Syndrome

Hi everyone!  I have  been absent for several weeks from my blog post.  So today instead of writing my normal Titus 2 encouragement.  Let me explain  where I have been.

On April 10th our Son Jenson went into the hospital to have a pace maker put in.

"Yes" I did say pace maker.  That thing that only older people get.

See our son Jenson was born with a condition called "Third Degree Heart Block"  this effects his electrical in his heart.  So his heart beats slower and not as efficient as a normal heart.
"I"  have been preparing my heart for this day since he was born.
"I" have been praying with all I have, to have him cured.
"I" have doubted Christ love for him.
"I" was told that Christ can heal & will heal his heart.(And He can)
"I" was doubting my own heart, believing if I go through with this procedure, my faith in Christ was weak.

So you can see the pattern above,"I"
The Lord revealed & rebuked me several days leading up to the surgery to the day of the surgery, it wasn't about "I".
It is about Him.  And I know this with all my heart, soul & mind.  I was so self absorbed on how "I" was feeling and not on my task at hand to be Christ heart, hands & feet for our family, friends and the people placed in front of me at the hospital.

He reminded me of the below verse:

Galatians 2:20
I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me.  The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.

"Yes!" what was "I" thinking!

Succumbing to the flesh is so easy, we can get so caught up in the "I" thing.  We need to keep our eyes & hearts on Him.  Because, if "I" would of closed my heart to His voice on what He had & has planned for our son, our son & others would of missed out on Christ's love that day.

So with that said, it was a day of so many blessings!  Because "I" kept my heart open to others needs. We prayed for & with other parents, that the Lord put in our paths that have sick children. 

Because, it is not about "I" it is about Him and having Faith that the Lord has bigger & better plans for our little one with his pace maker.  This is Jenson's journey to glorify our Savior.


Blessings to You

Amanda

11 comments:

Kathy said...

Amanda, your faith in Christ is so amazing. I will pray for Jenson and his healing. Thank you for sharing your "heart" today. I pray God blesses you with peace, joy and strength.

Jamie Joseph said...

I pray Jensen lives a long and healed life, glorifying our Lord and King!

And I thank you for this reminder. Please know that you are not the only one that He has been dealing with the "I" syndrome with! :)

Be Blessed and Joyful!

Eunora said...

Thanks for the reminder! I must constantly remind myself that He has a perfect plan for my life and that plan comes only from His great love for me. He desires the best for me, even when that includes difficulties. It is my growth not always my comfort that He is concerned with. May we trust in His goodness toward us and know that whatever comes our way is to one day bring Him glory. =)

Pamela Rose Williams said...

Hi Amanda, welcome back to the blogging world. I was so touched by our post today. Even though you did not do the normal Titus 2 post I believe we can all learn what it means to be about Him and not I. Thank you for that. I was reminded of another passage that is not about I and I remembered I guest posted over at thehandwritten.com with it. Here is a link: http://thehandwritten.com/why-am-i-so-content/ ... Just a simple note but "I" was also recently reminded of how it has nothing to do with me or I. Thank you for this today, I will be praying for your family, most especially for Jenson's heart. I found your blog because I am linked next to you over at the We Encourage linky today. You can find me at htto://christianeveryday.com

EverythingIam-blogspot.blogspot.com said...

I am so touched right now! Thank you Jesus for loving me through great women in You!

Glenys Robyn Hicks said...

He looks so well in the picture, bless him! Glenys

Tesha said...

Wonderful HEART felt post I am so blessed to have read this. Saying a prayer for your sweet son.

I'm Cindi... said...

So, so glad to hear from you Amanda! What an amazing mom, woman, and follower of Christ you are to allow Him to have control of Jenson's journey. Everything He allows is always for His glory...I learned that when I was trying to conceive my oldest son, and had I not seen His work and His plan unfold along the way, I would have missed the GREATEST blessings of my life. Love you, Friend!

momto8blog said...

I love your faith! and what a great example for your handsome happy son!! that is a beautiful picture.
I am your newest plower..pls follow back if you can.

Piper said...

Wow what a post. Thank you for sharing your struggle and you heart. SO many of us...including me have the same "I" problem. What a reminder that its all about HIM!!!

DaisyGirl said...

Thank you for stopping by my blog the other day and leaving a "hello". I'm glad this surgery is behind y'all. What a stressful thing it must be.

This post was very helpful for me today. I think I've been caught up in the "I" thing for some time now.

Hope y'all have a great weekend!